my heart is an open palm, exposed and raw
In my land of bright lights you are effervescent -
Overwhelming at once, I am oblivious the next.
You are the palpable product of words I never meant,
Of clouded judgement, infinite dreams; my sweet Regret.
My conscience weighs you down and embeds you
Somewhere in the murky depths of this sepulchral soul.
Yet there is little want of redemption for what I do,
And you and your kind maketh the stories I never told.
Even now I would sing that I am yours, Yours!
As I believe you are mine in all your tainted forms.
Sucker as I am for your taste, touch and allure,
The beauty of folly is not weeping when all else mourns.
So this is an ode to my ill-fated penchant for
Secrets I have to keep, and everything that
I loved to hold but not to possess.
That I wish to forget, but forget to regret.
Wednesday, July 27, 2005
yawn life really gets boring sometimes, even though i would say im the kind of person that embraces life. i love life, because it's a gift, but the monotony of it gets to me on some occasions (like today). its like i've been doing the exact same things last wednesday, sleeping eating going to school having the same lessons and using the computer, fretting over promos and yeah u get the picture. seems like i'm destined to do all this for two more years? i really really want to go to university asap. i know it's like a pressure cooker there, but at least it ain't a like a bullet train. i feel kinda lost now, like everything's happen so fast and before i know it i'll be doing my promos and hopefully it won't be like the cts.
okay my neighbour jes came over and she jes went back. now i don't know what to say anymore. ha ha good so i wont talk so much crap. tomorrow shall be a good day because it's half day! but we end at two anyway so it's only like two hours of difference. but it's better than nothing lar. we're gonna go shopping tomorrow! wow wow weee.
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